lost...

when will i ever stop losing my phone? probably never. it's the nature of the beast between me and my cell phone. i have lost it all over seattle...found it, lost it, found it.

i hate the feeling you have when you've lost something. i end up dreaming about finding it, and then waking up to the reality. it's not the most important thing in the world...but i am feeling so lost and disconnected without it.

i have lost some sense of time, but most of all...i feel like i've lost one of the only things that makes me feel connected to others. i can't call for help, and i can't answer when people try to reach me quickly. it's so inconvenient, so maddening how something that wasn't necessary at first becomes so ingrained into daily routine that being without makes me practically helpless and unresourceful. so now i cling to the internet, with the hopes of life returning to normal sometime soon.