and i must apologize. there are not many excuses besides just a general lack of...well, feeling.
my mom will call and ask me for stories or just what's new with me, and i tell her the same thing, because it's true. nothing is going on, nothing new has happened, everything is fine. but we all know what the word "fine" means. just....blah. fine = blah. not good, not bad, just....existing. well, hardly.
anyways, here is a lovely list of what has been going on with bessie, because i am so very fond of lists!
-work work work. moving to night shift tomorrow, which means, no social life. not like i had one to begin with? grah.
-PRAYING that i can get time off to go to disneyland. PRETTY PLEASE WITH SPRINKLES AND NUTELLA AND WHIPPED CREAM ON TOP???
-utter obsession with darren criss and everything about him. i have no shame.
-looking forward to and dreading the last harry potter event everrrrrrrrrrr. because it means my childhood will officially be over.
-right at this very very moment: watching hello dolly on fmc, skyping with elaine, sitting on our giant armchair with a big blanket, deuce (my impossibly soft and fluffy sheep friend), and some coffee, and trying to draft a long overdue letter but blogging instead.
-wishing i knew what was missing in my life, worrying about what i want to do with myself, and kind of loathing myself for being so self-involved.
-finally bought a new laptop...FINALLY. now i am broke. hahaha. but it will be worth it!
-excited and nervous to start being creative again. i need this kick to my brain though. i also need to start reading more and start exercising again. just...you know....rev up my wellness in general and get some balance back in my life again. let's do it together!
-homesick for the west coast....even though the weather is nice out here....i want to see my family and friends and just....chill.
-trying to be on skype more often and more open to keeping in touch more often.
okay. enough rambling for now. until next time, lovely people. :)
